"Who am I to so arrogantly assume that I deserve better?"
This is the thought on my heart today. I am always looking to the future, hoping and wondering what's next, waiting for something better. But why should I assume there is anything better out there for me?? There are so many people in impossibly rotten situations, and they hope for something better too...I should just shut-up and learn to be happy with the life God has given me.
I am developing a new appreciation for the little things in life. The way my heart feels like it might burst when Ava tells me she loves me. The taste & warmth of a cup of coffee in the morning. The smell of my favorite fabric softner. The feeling of snuggling into a warm bed each night. There are so many things that I truly enjoy in my simple everyday life. And that is what it's really all about.
Sure I'd love to be a successful career woman, have crazy amounts of money and travel the world. And of course I want Prince Charming and the castle and a bunch of pretty, perfectly-behaved children. But that is never going to happen, and I'm ok with that. I may never leave Genesee County (though I will certainly try!). I may never have a career. I will never meet my Prince charming. But I will wake up every day and be happy. I will slow down and appreciate the "sweet nothings" that light up my life. I will do my best to better serve the Lord, to be a better friend, a better daughter, a better mother, a better person.
At some point you grow up and realize that life is really just about surviving and making the best of the life you've been given. God has a plan for me, for you, for everyone. I have finally fully surrendered to the fact that I am not actually in control, God is. If I am meant for bigger and better things I know He will lead me along that path, but right now I feel like He is whispering to me something a friend recently told me... "Bloom where you are planted, love"
that's a hard thing to accept, isn't it? even is some of your dreams don't come true, God does have plans for your beautiful life :)
ReplyDeleteThere are things that we never want to let go of,
ReplyDeletepeople we never want to leave behind.
But keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world,
it's the beginning of a new life.
- Anonymous
You can still have dreams Katie, just maybe not the ones you had in 'childhood'.
xoxo Sherri
Contentment. It's so hard sometimes. But, Praise Him that we have the hope that "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." (2cor4:17)
ReplyDeleteYour post blessed my heart and reminded me that I need to be content. Waitressing. In Flushing. At home. :)